55 Years Ago and Growing
Thursday, January 5th, 2012This Christmas whilst indulging in a bout of omphaloskepsis and at the same time suffering great pain emanating from my nethers, I asked myself where it all went wrong and eventually after much gazing I narrowed it down to a day in February 1957 when I set out from Duncan Road, in Longsight, Manchester to catch a bus up Stockport Road to Ardwick Green and St Gregory’s School to take my 11+ examination. In those days every child took this examination to see whether they were good enough to go to Grammar School, Technical School, or in fact remain insitu at their Primary School, to waste their time in the mundane until released at 15 or 16 to fill the unskilled jobs that the country was full of at that time.
So armed with pen and pencil, ruler and pencil sharpener all wrapped up in a little wooden pencil case, we sat in quaky miserable silence in the grim classrooms of the aforementioned school whilst we were examined in the arts of Arithmetic, English and IQ. I, unfortunately, was classed as very bright and St Bede’s College in Alexandra Park, Whalley Range was my lot. This was a school that gave all parents of the time a great buzz and advanced them up the local society pecking order a great deal and turned decent working class folk into the yuppies of their day.
However for us guinea pigs thrust into the cauldron of early baby boomerism, St Bede’s was not at all what it was supposed to be. From the very first day or at least from the day that the gloss wore off, we were aware of a canker in the place. Nobody was happy, nobody smiled. Staff and pupil alike could be seen to not enjoy themselves. This aura of gloom and misery descended from the top but we could not put our finger on it. For all our years at the school and for many years afterwards, whilst we tried our best to forget the experience, we were bound up in totally negative thoughts of our time at Bede’s. We now know what this gloom and misery was all about and we can put our hard times into perspective and try and remember the few decent things from those days, like Spike Martin’s classes and the sportsfield where this despondency never encroached. I do not ever remember the authors of this wretched atmosphere walking down Alness Road and onto Brantingham Road where our playing fields were situated. No, Messrs Duggan and Burke just sat in their studies and grimaced while they thought of the next best boy to abuse or the next stupid College rule to make.
I had six years there and on the cusp of third level education when Duggan decided my face did not fit and that I had to go. He took his time about it and must have examined me closely from a distance before he decided I was for the chop. He did not even inform my parents as any right man would have done. For my part I was so badly damaged mentally by my experiences I was glad of a way out. I had lost touch with reality. I had become an automaton only able to turn up in the morning and go home at night, not able to soak in anything that the devastated and underqualified staff had to offer.
So at 17+ I left the school, thrown onto the midden that I had been told would not be there for us top 6%, with not an idea in my head as to what I wanted to do, with never a steer by anybody at the school about what was at all possible for a well qualified midden dweller. Basically I was back with the lucky kids who failed their 11+ level, only they had had four or five years to sort out where they were heading and were content with their lot. In actual fact due to the sticky consistency of this middden it became intensely more difficult to escape from than the morass that those who had failed their 11+ and left school at 15 or 16 found themselves in I have never ever got over that feeling of uselessness that I suffered at that time. Six years spent in expensive and at times intellectual education and then wiped off the blackboard like chalk scores at the end of a game of darts.
The only saviour of this whole chapter was that I was back amongst my own, the uncomplaining, hard working underbelly of Manchester and because of them I had inherited this willingness to work and work hard, so I soon found myself a mattress, a job on a building site, where I could at least come to terms with my lot. The only trouble was, my aquaintances and those of my age group had had two years more experience of this dilemma and had learnt the angles and ways of humble life. I had to learn fast and I did but I do not owe one iota of that cunning reflex to Bede’s. I had reached the end of my six year vaccuum and I was starting again as if at 11 years of age to try and make something of what Bede’s did not give me.
How can a school with the reputation that St Bede’s had, waste so much of young people’s lives. The very time when young boys need two strong and helpful arms to save them if they stumble, all St Bede’s offered was a one way ticket to oblivion. As I have explained in previous postings 20 – 30% of each years intake were unceremoniously discarded when all they needed was some help to get over whatever personal hump was blocking their path but all Burke wanted was a well oiled smooth running educational establishment regardless of personal hurdles. I remember him coming into our class one day and saying ” B…… your father died at work this morning you will stay in school and go home at the normal time” then swept out of the room. The boy was devastated but dare not move. The teacher embarrassed beyond belief but too emotionally immature to react.
Whereas we now know what Duggan wanted, a smooth young fragile boy, personally picked out of the many hundreds that came before him. He seems to have had no interest in the school or the staff. They were just there for his own personal and vicious ends. These poor abused boys were discarded as soon as their use was over.